`` you're running through my mind * JAKE !

[`` meghan davis !]

i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry

Since arriving back in Toronto, Meghan missed all of her friends and trying to catch up with them all in one was hard work! Hopping down the stairs in her outfit , Meghan's brown eyes wandered in every direction. She had only heard about Jake and some new girl hours before from one of her best friends and now she was determined to see if it was true. Meghan and Jake were best friends when she lived here in the previous years, and she sorta liked him. They were together everyday and it just seemed naturally to nod her head yes when people asked if they were a item. Of course, she didnt. The two just giggled and walked off the other direction. But leaving on such sort notice, she only had time to tell Jake goodbye and not tell him how she truly felt. And she hoped all the rumors were untrue. Sitting with her legs crossed on the surfer bench, Meghan smiled as she looked over the horizon that was once fimilar to her. Even though it was in the dead of winter, nothing stopped Meghan from going to the beach! Scrolling through her phone randomly searching, her mind wandered off to what her life would have become if she stayed and eventually told Jake her true feelings. Tapping her foot nervously, Meghan shivered a bit. These feelings hardly ever came over her and it was so unusual for them to take control now. She truly liked Jake and she found it odd that she was hearing all this from everyone else, maybe she needed to meet the girl face to face and find out what was going on. No one could blame her for leaving last minute! If it was her choice, her and Jake would probablly be together and acting like complete fools. Maybe even dating by now. Gosh! Love was so complicated. But no one suspected it was complicated for Meghan, well wake up! Cause it is.

Since leaving, Meghan had turned to music as a way of getting over the people she left behind in Toronto. But she never truly could forget about Jake. Since like all her songs were about leaving a boy behind, houw could you?! Pulling out her LG Shine from her back pocket, she plugged her ear phones in and listened to her songs that were downloaded on to it. Singing softly, she saw someone walking towards her in the distance. She didnt want to act like a fool, not until she was 100% sure that it was Jake. Sulking back, Meghan questioned herself underneath her breath, "Jake..." she said outloud. The figure seemed to be walking straight past her and to another girl. Shaking her head, she knew it was only her imagination. "Wheww..." Meghan reluctantly was glad that it wasnt Jake. She hadnt thought about what she was going to say to him yet and she still needed time to figure out where her heart was exactally at. After all these years, could Jake possibly still have had feelings for her?" Or was she too caught up in her perfect world to snap back into reality? Meghan was about to face her worst fear of finding out that there was truly another girl and she wasnt it.

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[jake bond]

You know me better than I know myself.
Don't take my heart and put it on a shelf.

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[`` meghan davis !]

i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry

The figure in the black hoodie became even more visable as it approached her. The voice! No...the hair! Yes! It was Jake....it was him. The former and current love of her life. Why was he here? Did he find out she was back and wanted to see her so bad...he followed her?! Meghan's eyes lit off stars and her smile grew brighter. Things were going as plan, the way he looked at her made her feel wanted and important. Just like he had looked at her back then. She shrugged, not having a sense of words at the moment. "Jake? Its you..." Was all she managed to say. Taking her earbuds out of her ears and slightly turning towards him, she watched him study her features like a book. "What are you doing here!" Excitement raced through her voice as she couldnt stop smiling at him. He was gorgeous and his voice was the most sincere thing ever. The most fimilar too. She opened her mouth to ask another question, but she was cut off by his struggling question. "Surprise!" She said waving her hands in the air as she let out a slight giggle. "Well, when I left, we moved to New York. It sucked there, seriously! I mean I didnt have my friends or....or you." She said softly, her voice soft and mellow like she had never said goodbye to him in the first place. Guilt filled her throat as she swallowed hard. Meghan didnt want to face having to ask him how he felt about her. If she had just stayed put in Toronto, things would have been different! Between her and Jake, between her and everyone else. She wouldnt have to face asking if he moved on or if there was some other girl. She cleared her throat, "So...what's new? How are you?" What she really ment to say was 'Jake Bond did you love me like I loved you?!', but no. She couldnt manage to get that out, stupid her!

She smiled as he spoke once more. She could picture the two of them running down their street in the middle of the night as they snuck off down here to the beach. And she could hear thier laughter and hear him talking as she giggled. She could picture all of it, and all she wanted was to have that back. Running her fingers through her hair, she placed her hand on her knee as she studied his features now. Jake looked just how she had remembered him, only much more matured. And way more cute than she last pictured him to ever be. "Jake, Im serious. New York sucked without you. I didnt wake up to the sound of my cell phone ringing off the hook with your ringtone. And I didnt hear your voice anymore. Talking over IM for those few weeks, wasnt the same. I didnt hear what I wanted to before I left...." Had Meghan basically just told him she wanted to hear him confess his massive crush on her. "I mean...." It was too late, he was looking at her with some sort of hint to what she said. Now all Meghan needed to do was shut up and let him finish. "Who's Cassidy Martinez?" She blurted out rapidly. As if Cassidy was someone she knew all along. But no, she was ethier best friends with Jake now, crushing on him, or his girlfriend. No, Meghan could handle option A. Option B & C would crush her. "Oh! When I moved away, I found of way of grieving...through music." She confessed smiling her bright smile at him as her eyes twinkled with stars that showed off her beautiful brown eyes.

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[jake bond]

You know me better than I know myself.
Don't take my heart and put it on a shelf.

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[`` meghan davis !]

i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry

Meghan sighed, that wasnt the exact answer she wanted to hear. So he had basically found a Meghan number two. She nodded her head, listening to him ramble on and on about how awesome this Cassidy person was. "So...you like her?" She said stating as more of she knew what the answer was going to be, she didnt even have to ask the question. She just wanted to hear it straight from Jake. She didnt want to her from Andie or Lexi about how there was this girl. She wanted the truth and if it was enough to heal her broken heart then so be it. Meghan brushed a piece of stray hair out of her face as she smirked a bit. She could tell Jake's eyes were fixtured upon her features, and falling for her didnt seem to be in his list of things to do. But falling for Cassidy was already checked off. "You sound like I ruined everything...like your life." She said a bit depressed that his slight un happy reaction wasnt what she was expecting. It almost sounded like he had this plan to do things his way, and she had just thrown it all out of whack. "Sick hot tub parties? My kinda best friend then..." She joked, Cassidy was now her enemy. Or her replacment. Meghan had no interest about Cassidy whatsoever. If she was trying to take Jake away, Meghan was going to fight. And it wasnt going to be all nicey nicey fight ethier. Hard core, war.

"Yeah it did." Meghan sighed again, Jake didnt seem like he had wanted to see her. Running into her, wasnt the best time of his day, she could tell. "Yep, it is. It definetly wasnt like it is here." Maybe she was pushing for something that was never there. Maybe, he was blowing her off because she was just coming on way too strongly. And he was pushing her away just as much as she was pushing Cassidy out of her way. Meghan nodded her head as her eyes wandered rapidly from the sand, to the waves and back to him. Seeing him glance at his cell, she could make out the picture very easily and she wasnt very surprised ethier. The friendship of Meghan and Jake seemed to be over in his eyes. But Meghan couldnt tell that he was thinking of just how beautiful she had gotten over the past five years. And what Meghan saw, was Jake looking at her with a shock, soft look that read he didnt feel the same way. "Still hanging with Andie?" She asked questionably. The three used to be like the three muskateers, including Madison at times as well. And since she moved, she seemed to have broken the friendship so it seemed to be all her fault. "Andie told me you dont really talk to her...too busy huh?" She replied swinging her legs out in front of her as she let the sand run through her skinny fingers. Meghan was so frailge, you thought that if you hugged her too tight, she would break in half. But she wasnt actually that aneorexic. Her hair color lightened with blonde streaks from her days spent walking through Times Square in New York. She had definetly changed, and she didnt know Jake was taking such a big notice in that ethier.

Meghan's light brown eyes shot at Jake's, "No, dont be sorry. I didnt hear a full goodbye is all. It was rushed and it wasnt the way it should have been, thats all." Over the years, Meghan became a great faker/liar. Whatever you wanted to call it and now was the time to put her skills to the test. He looked like he had shrugged it off, perfect. "Well, Andie told me about her...so I was wondering." Cover up number two. Brilliant Meghan, just brilliant. Lying to your former best guy already, nice way to start off your re aqquaintence. "They arent that good. Just words scribbled down on a piece of paper that I made up with a beat. I mean..it's not like Im as good as you." She said playfully raising her eyebrows, almost daring him to sing her a song. "I wrote one on the flight there and back here. I wrote half on the way there and finished it on the way back here. After five years I didnt touch that song. It was almost like a part of me was left here. Things were like almost...unsaid or unfinished." She said leaning back on her hands to hold up her upper half of her petite body.

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[jake bond]

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Don't take my heart and put it on a shelf.

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[`` meghan davis !]

i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry

Getting the feeling that Jake could have been lying to her, wasnt the best feeling in the world. But maybe she was thinking of something that wasnt even there or even ment to be between the two new best friends. Jake would never lie to her....would he? No! He wouldnt, he could trust her just like she trusted him. But now on the topic of Cassidy, it was making her feel a bit uncomfortable at the moment. "Well, yeah thats what I ment. I was asking if she was like your best friend or like average buddy kinda thing." Oooo, cover number...what was that again..?? 4? Cover up number four. Meghan smirked deviously as he mentioned that he didn't like Cassidy that way. "You just seem...not Jake anymore....things have changed and I didnt want them to. I wanna go back to five years earlier when there was me, you, Andie and Madison..." Taking a slight pause, she looked in the other direction away from Jake as she scoffed under her breath, "And most importantly...no Cassidy." She then turned back to him and smiled, he hadnt even managed to hear what she had said! "Great..I'll be there since you want me to come...Im sure Andie is already going so I'll be there." She said giving off a big smile to him. Her pearly whites glistened in the sun and the highlights on her brown hair, stood out in the light from the sun. She was almost like one of those models you see out of a catalog. Perfect to one person and just another person to the rest...."Why, thank you. Different, yeah...very unique." She said giggling a bit as she felt his hands, soaring through her hair.

Nodding her head as Jake talked about the differences between New York, and home. She couldnt agree more. New York never slept..literally. And the city lights never died down, they were always shining through your window. If New York was alive and kicking, so were you. Toronto had the more family vibe, much more calmer and quieter. Hardly anything interesting happened there like it did in New York, but if you were like Jake and her, everything seemed to happen to you all at once too. Meghan got the feel that Jake was glancing between herself and Cassidy that was on his cell phone screen. "I like your background." She teased sarcastically, not making eye contact with him as her brown eyes fixtured at her hot pink toenails. "She said she's hardly seen you and things are way different here. Cant wait to be welcomed once more." Her eyes rolled as she stated her last statment. If Cassidy and Meghan were to meet, Cassidy definetly wouldnt be one to welcome her if she ever found out about Jake and Meghan's previous relationship. Even though Jake hadnt said a word to break the silence that formed, she knew everything that he seemed to want to say. Everything except his biggest issue ever! Seeing Jake look down at her stomach and then back up at her, Meghan could tell what he was thinking. Almost everyone thought that about Meghan. But it seemed so unreal from Meghan to go from average weight to imediate skinny. Everyone knew Meghan knew that wasnt how she lived. But since moving away, Meghan couldnt bring herself to eat for the first few days. She would just randomly snack. Not even have a full meal, the move left her so stunned, she couldnt bear to look at food that she might have ate with Jake, Andrea, and Madison.

"Why do you still feel sorry?" She questioned his statement, like she was a history teacher questioning the student's answer. "Ahhhh...." She said nodding at his answer, as she inhaled a deep breath. She could still smell Jake, the way he did years ago. Axe mixed in with his brother's infamous colgne. To others, it seemed as way to much scents in one, but to her it seemed reconzigeable. "Jake, if it was my choice, I would have never left here. I spent 10 years of my life here. And missing those five, seemed like the puzzle wasnt even complete. I remember it like it had happened right now. My brother woke me up in the middle of the night. We ran downstairs and my dad was sitting there talking to his boss. His boss told him he had to leave by the next day, they were shipping my dad off to war. And the rest of the family was instructed to live in New York." She took a slight pause, that night had changed so much of her and so much of her life as well. "And...by the next afternoon, we were gone. The house was empty. I was rushed, I couldnt even take a second to tie my shoes. My mom loaded all of us in the car and we were gone...in a instant." Meghan glanced over at Jake, who seemed depressed by the whole story. "I called your house and your mom said you had just left for my house. I couldnt handle it...I just broke down crying....I handed the phone to my mom and she talked to your's..Jake Im so sorry." She said as she brought her bony knees up to her falt stomach. Tears filled her eyes with disappointment. She could have handled that situation better and she should have too. "Jakeeee..." She whined, finally giving in...Meghan took a deep breath and narrowed her eyes on him. "I sing then you do. Promise?" She asked sticking her long pinky out for him to wrap his around her's as a kindergarten promise. She gave a nod as he did so, and she looked around..."Fine..dont laugh!" She warned. Her voice sounded pure and innocent, just how the song had been wrote. Pursing her lips together....she began to flow the words out of her mouth and into music.

I could honestly say
You've been on my mind
Since i woke up today (up today)
i look at your photograph
all the time
These memories come back to life
And i dont mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry
But the one thing i wish i'd forget
A memory i wanna forget
Is goodbye

I woke up this morning
And played our song
And i know my tears sing along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
Cuz i know im wasting my time
And i dont mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till i cry
But the one thing i wish i'd forget
A memory i wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's glowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
It does it right to hear you say

Remember when we kissed
You still feel it on our lips
The time that you danced with me
With the no music playing
You remember those simple things
We talked till we cryed
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish i'd forget
Is saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Ohhhh
Goodbye

Her eyes had remained close in the song, and she couldnt even bear to look at Jake. He could have been so vain, he thought the song was about him. When really she had just wrote it from her experience of leaving her friends. On the other hand, he could have been completely oblivious to what the song was really about. She slowly opened her eyes letting a soft smile appear as she saw his reaction to her song.

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*mariah you type to much goshh XD*

[`` meghan davis !]

i remember those simple things
I remember till i cry

Even though Meghan could strongly tell that he was lying, she just shook her head in agreement. She wasnt going to fight with him now over some girl she didnt even know! What a nice way to ruin what was starting back up once more! "Cool....what about Madison?" Meghan blurted out curiously. She hadnt talked to Madison since she left and she didnt even know if she still was even here. "Tell me about it. My brother lives in New York now with his band. My sister moved to California and she's an intern at Elle Magazine. So now it's just me, my mom, Noah, Braison and my dad." Meghan said naming off that she was now the oldest that resided in the household. Which was pretty neat when you thought about it. "Ever been to California?" Meghan had visited her sister Brandy and her cousin Mandy a few times in California, it was awesome. Hot guys and gorgeous beaches! Her kinda life right there. She always swore she would live in Toronto. Hearing Jake say maybe one day the change will be for the better, she thingyed her head to the side looking at him in basic awe. "Maybe..." She teased playfully. "Oh." was all Meghan managed to say as Jake explained Cassidy was now the new "It" girl, the spot Meghan once held and was planning to get back. "Is her reward you then?" She murmered under her breath for only herself to catch hear of. Meghan was now beyond jelous, Cassidy seemed to have everything. Including the one thing Meghan loved, Jake Bond. Meghan squealed as Jake picked her up, "You better not drop me misterrr!" She warned shaking her finger at him. "Gosh, I love this OCEAN!!!!!!!!!!!" Meghan yelled as Jake threw her in. "JAKE!!!" She yelled as she grabbed him and pulled him in with her. "Oh that was fun." She smirked as she stared at his brown eyes, bitting her lip, she broke the stare and dived out of his arms. "Cant catch me..cause Im Meghannnn!!" She said swimming off beneath the water. Feeling a hand grabbing her leg, she giggled madly seeing Jake. "You dork." She said running her fingers through his hair and shaking the water out. "Your hair sure does hold a lot of this waterrr!" She said giggling. Something about Jake made her feel special. He could always make her laugh. "Think Cassidy would be jealous??" She asked bitting her lip as she flirted with him.

Her brown locks were now drenched along with her clothes. Dripping water as she stood up, they sat on the shore and let the waves crash at thier feet. Meghan took her finger and wrote her name in the sand. "M-E-G-H-A-N." She spelled out as she drew a heart beside it. Apart of her wanted to write Jake's name write next to the heart, but apart of her knew he was leaning toward's Cassidy more and she didnt want to come on too strong quite yet. "Your quite welcome.." She said looking at him as she drew random things with a stick she found lying there, like a music note for instance. "Cheeseeee!" Meghan grinned big and couldnt help but bust out into a laugh as the picture snapped. "Ohh me like it. You'll have to send it to me later." She said nodding. "You better change it, cause Jake Bond, I know where you live." She said cracking a smile at him as she tried to remain the most serious she could. "I like your hair." Meghan said softly as he said he liked her nail polish. Running her fingers through his hair, she smiled. "It has grown like majorly long...like seriously long" She said softly pulling one of the curls out and seeing how long it was. Day dreaming, Meghan soon snapped out of it as the one question people asumed she was, had gotten asked. "W-what?" She questioned, a bit taken aback. "No, of course not. Im just growing taller, so the weight is getting balanced. That's all." Meghan stated, not even making eye contact with him. Truth was, right after Meghan left Toronto, she stopped eating. Her parents took her to multiple doctors and they said the best cure for her was to take her back to Toronto. When her dad explained how they couldn't, Meghan reluctantly began eating once more. Three good meals a day. Though, she still worked out and lost a lot more weight than her body was ready for. Meghan shook her head repeatedly, looking at Jake in disbelief almost. "No, none taken. Its okay...people just asume is all. Im used to it." No, she was just used to lying to people about it. "Jake, you can keep apologizing, but unless you have some magical time portal, dont worry. Im fine..." Her eyes pleaded as she wiggled her fingers when she mentioned magical time portal and made a 'oohhhh' sound along with it. "Tell me what?" Meghan protested. "Jake, dont lie to me. Tell me what?" She repeated the question as she could tell Jake wasnt being truthful. It had felt like someone had released a thousand butterflies in her stomach.."Jake...? Tell me." She protested once more as she gave him pleading eyes that had lost thier stars after she had moved away.

Sighing as Jake gave her a hug, Meghan hugged tightly back and bit her lip. Time was ticking and if Jake wasnt going to tell her, she would have to confess what she was going to five years earlier. She just prayed Jake came out and told her whatever he needed to tell her. "Okay good...here I go." After Meghan sang the song, her brown watery eyes locked with his as she let out a soft smile. "Thank you...it kinda just came to me." Meghan said lying once more. She hated lying to Jake, but if it was going to cameflauge the way she truly felt about him, then so be it. "Um...just about some girl trying to get over a boy. I dunno, I kinda just made it up. A fairytale sorta thing." She said shrugging. When she did so, you could see the bones in her shoulders and she quickly put them down, seeing Jake staring at where the bones were sticking out. "Jake..." Meghan was speechless as his voice poured through her ears. "Oh my gosh..that was...was...beyond words. Out of this world!" She said wipping away her own tears, Meghan had no clue why she was crying. Maybe it was because it reminded her about her eating disorder. A little bit longer....And I'll be fine. Yep, it ment that to her. Sniffling a bit, she turned to him as mascara ran down her cheeks from getting tossed in the water and now crying. "Whats it about?" Meghan warmly smiled back at him.

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